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I am obviously upset right now.

DOWNS:
-Cousin. I need her and the thought of it... to be on the other side hurts.. the empathy kills me
-No Car
-Lacking again, loosing you, I think for good.
-Not getting it.
-Reoccurring dreams of her, manipulation. Her coming back...I never realized how scared I was of her, until she becomes like a threat in these dreams of all happiness or moving forward.
-Break is over
-No need for me

MOTIVATIONS:
-Health
-School
-Wishful thinking

Uncoditional

Can't you see I love you? Imagine feelings of respect, compassion, admiration-such strong emotions as these that never wave...never alter...never stop. Is it for granted, that you would rather end this? May it be friendship, more, or even your own life. You are forever in my mind. Time doesn't crease what you have on me. I mean I love you. Forget this cliche-carded compassion. This is pure. This is real. You are my blood, my sister, my brother, my best friend, my joy, my motive. Do you not understand? Can your simplistic motives not grasp it? My being is yours. The will is there. I have it to offer. Please stay still. Please stay with me. Don't push this fear of loss in me. Please honor it. Say its important. Say something, anything to show.