Disclaimer: I like men.

There's this girl I have strangely taken an odd sort of obsession too. I read her blogs on tumblr, I go on her myspace (I must also admit I have been known to steal her profile song every now and again), I look at her pictures and I just think she could be the most beautiful person I've ever seen. Now I admit reading this back it sounds "creeper-status", but really is it? I'm not like sexually attracted to her I mean. Though if she was born a guy and I lost all image of her being a girl and started a new, I would definitely want to jump her bones..(yeah I just said that)
I have no clue why I have this obsession...okay let's stop calling it that...let's call it admiration or interest. She's just so exciting...so refreshing. She does cool things, she has cool pictures of her doing these things and I find myself wishing that I had the same hair as her. Or the same talent. Or the same influence she has on people.
I mean I'm the joke. I'm Andrea, the girl that's not even really looked at, at being a sexual, beautiful female. I say what I mean. I say odd things. I say what people are too scared to say out loud, but I know they are thinking it. I'm open with sexuality. And tell people how amazing they are, and telling people about things/situations that would be uncomfortable to the norm. I'm open. Period. Blunt. Out there. No mystery.
Sometimes I wish I was hard to get, because I read a sonnet in English that main message was: The harder something was to get the more value it has. The more people will want it.

I want to be chased. But is it just pure laziness that I just don't want to play those games?

I mean I believe that those games lead to a sort-term-kind-of-bliss that I'm just not after. And I really don't care enough to try to do something different then what I've been doing.

Maybe someday people will just appreciate honesty, not find it boring, but refreshingly exciting and discover just how much knowledge could be gained from each other through honesty. Maybe someday people will take an interest to it.