Bloody Nose.

I need to clear my karma and conscience. I need to become that bigger/better person, one that steps away from shady situations and just tries harder to see the insides.

People are the way they are for a reason and if I hope for acceptance or unconditional love from other people I need to start being that person I seek. Some people don't believe in karma, but I think its real just like a feeling. A thought or idea exist and can change, but a feeling you have forever. I will never forget what Barry Feldman said my first day in Biology, sophomore year. He said: We are all the same. We all have the same feelings, adults and teens. When you become adults you will feel the same rejection, depression, happiness, confusion...the only difference is you're older.
Feelings never change. And if karma doesn't exist it takes away all the hope I have for justice. You believe in your gods and I choose to believe that people get what they deserve in life. I mean isn't that true? You work hard for something, you become successful no matter if you possess that thing you worked hard for or not.
Success is in the eye of the beholder, and beauty is as well. I want to be that person that sees the beautiful flaws in people. Have sympathy, take everything to heart, because I want it. I want someone like that. And if I seek it and want it given to me shouldn't I return? I'm constantly feeling like people use me and just take, but I need to stop worrying about other people taking and concentrate on my giving. Because hope is real and desire is real. If you want it, you will ultimately posses it.
This concept is all after a bloody nose I got in English. Its not karma , but I think I deserved it..wake up call.